7-14-05

First love
So heavy, so unique, so beautiful, so precious
Pain. Happiness. Sadness. Joy.
Still crying all the time
Hoping, wishing, dreaming, praying, crying...
For you still
I thought I had you forever
Now I'm forced to move forward
And it hurts so badly that I can't breathe
But i'm on my own
Obligated to be strong and independent
What about you?
How are you feeling about all this?
Making it so hard for me
Do you even care?
I know I will never get over you...but you've done it easily
Such a burden on this weak body of mine
Needing nourishment and care
Hard to know I'll never get what I need
Missing you and what we had,
Every second of every day
So pure and rare, what we had
So strong and real, while we were so young
I suppose we're lucky to have experienced something so wonderful
I hope and pray that I'll find a love like that again
Thank you for what you taught me and gave me
Despite my envy I wish you a wonderful love to last you a lifetime
And my last words to you...
Thank you, I love you, Goodbye